There's nothing I can lose in the break-in that you haven't taken

If you ever come back
The Script


If you're standing with your suitcase
But you can't step on the train
Everything's the way that you left it I still haven't slept yet

And if you're covering your face now
But you just can't hide the pain
Still setting two plates on the counter but eating without ya

If the truth is you're a liar
When you say that you're okay
I'm sleeping on your side of the bed going out of my head now

And if you're out there trying to move on
But something pulls you back again
I'm sitting here trying to persuade you like you're in the same room

And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
And I wish you could still give me a hard time
And I wish I could still wish it was over
But even if wishing is a waste of time
Even if I never cross your mind

I'll leave the door on the latch
If you ever come back, if you ever come back
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back
There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
And it will be just like you were never gone
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back, if you ever come back now
Oh if you ever come back, if you ever come back

Now they say I'm wasting my time
Cause you're never coming home
But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now

And by leaving my door open
I'm risking everything I own
There's nothing I can lose in the break in that you haven't taken

And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
And I wish you could still give me a hard time
And I wish I could still wish it was over
But even if wishing is a waste of time
Even if I never cross your mind

I'll leave the door on the latch
If you ever come back, if you ever come back
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back
There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
And it will be just like you were never gone
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back, if you ever come back now
Oh if you ever come back, if you ever come back

If it's the fighting you remember or the little things you miss
I know you're out there somewhere, so just remember this
If it's the fighting you remember or the little things you miss
Oh just remember this, oh just remember this

I'll leave the door on the latch
If you ever come back, if you ever come back
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back
There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
And it will be just like you were never gone
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back, if you ever come back now
Oh if you ever come back, if you ever come back now

And it will be just like you were never gone
And it will be just like you were never gone
And it will be just like you were never gone
If you ever come back, if you ever come back now

I'll pick up the broken pieces till I'm bleeding

It Will Rain
Bruno Mars

If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don’t have it anymore.

There’s no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m makin’
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin’ out the door.

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

I’ll never be your mother’s favorite
Your daddy can’t even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I’d be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin’ with that troublesome guy

But they’re just afraid of something they can’t understand

Oooh well little darlin’ watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make you mine

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

Don’t just say, goodbye
Don’t just say, goodbye
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make it right

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

It wasn't so long ago

No One
Alicia Keys


I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all I know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain
You and me together
Through the days and nights

I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all I know is everything's going to be alright

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So til the end of time I'm telling you there is no one 


No one

Never Wanna Let Go

Wish You Were Here
Avril Lavigne

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth, is that I really mi-i-iss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go let go let go let go)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I'll always be the guy you're supposed to be with

Almost There
Childish Gambino


Girl, I messed up real bad
I'm looking back on the days that we both had
I go to bed and I dream so hard
Of little mixed kids running in the front yard
I need you close, I need your kiss
I never ever, ever, ever knew a love like this
I, miss you more than Puffy missed B.I.G
I didn't think that you would leave a hole this big
In my life, you need to be my wife
I made this song while holdin' the pillow tight
And wishin' that it was you, what can a nigga do
Fuck this success, fuck these interviews
Fuck these phone calls, girl you are worth it
When I was happy, you were happy, you are perfect
When I was blue, you were blue, you're my Smurfette
I put my best chips on the worst bet


Girl, I need you like I need air
And fuck these other honeys, I will be there
I never ever, ever thought that I would be scared
Of living in a world when you are not there
My biggest fear is that you won't give a fuck
When you play this song on your MacBook
"Is that CG, yo, he's old news
I'm way too busy with my new dude."
The best time I ever had
Is kissing in my shitty ass Kia van
I wish that it was me instead
Feeling all your pain
I know that it is different now
It will never be the same but
I swear to God, our love special
You can be my number 2 like one pencil
Or you can be my number one, I will let you
In on my life, I've changed so much since you
Left, that hotel room
And if you're with another guy, go tell dude
That he could never keep us apart, he needs a better door
He'll always be the guy that you settle for
I'll always be the guy you're supposed to be with
Where the fuck is Cupid when you need him
I'm so Sam Cooke, I need Cupid too
I play Sam Cooke and I think of you


Baby girl we need to be together
This song ain't for my album
This song is for the better
And even though I'm living in a city full of strangers
They can see I'm different
They can see my anger
They can see my pain
They can see the way I talk about you
They see the way I'm living and I won't live long without you
I drink every night, I smoke more too
I think it is safe to say death or you
I need you more now than I ever did
I'm still the same guy you fell in love with
I need a second chance like I need a prayer
Sometimes I think God just doesn't care
I hope he has a plan for both you and I
So we can be together at a different time
Remember when I come home late
And you'd be crying over some food on a cold plate
I'll never do that shit to you again
You're the most beautiful girl I've ever known and my best friend
Baby girl we need to make up
And when I dream of you, I don't want to wake up
And when I don't dream, I don't want to wake up
I'd rather die now than not have your touch
Cause I miss you so much

The Hardest Part

It is absolutely the worst, most terrorizing part of this whole nightmare, that I can't speak to her. I can't hold her hand, look into her beautiful brown eyes and tell her the three magic words.

I am sorry.

I feel in my heart, such a cold terror, a fear, a tingling tearing pain about my mistake. I did the wrong thing and caused a cavalcade of misery and issues and problems and things falling horribly apart.

I never made a decision. I never had a thought. I saw it happen as it occurred and I instantly, immediately, all-encompassingly knew it was wrong and regretted it. It terrified me. It made me feel miserable, embarrassed, ashamed, idiotic, stupid, mean, nasty... and by simply thinking about it, I feel nauseous.

I did the wrong thing. I made a mistake.

I will be in the middle of my day, at work, walking to a meeting, or coming back from lunch, and a pain will strike me like lightning. It makes my whole face and chest hot, sends electric chills down my spine. My head swims, my ear ring and in my head is only screaming. My own screams, at top volume, directly into my synapses. My eyes open wide but my vision blacks out. I stop walking, I clutch the wall and wince from the attack. My knees buckle and my skin feels singed. All the power and energy in my body is being sucked out as if through my stomach. All my senses are physically being attacked. By my emotions. By my regret. My body is turning on itself. My immense volume of shame and pain is too overwhelming to continue to push down, and it overwhelms me.

These attacks can last 5 seconds in the middle of the day. If you stop and count out loud, you see how long that really is. I'll wait for you. One. Two. Three. Four. Five. It must be absurd to watch as a guy is walking past some cubicals and it looks like he was shot with a harpoon in his chest. At night they triple. Quadruple. They can last 10 minutes. 30. All day everyday they come in waves, sometimes very often, sometimes only every hour or two. They havent gotten better, lighter, or less frequent. They are unrelenting and wicked. They feel like pure evil.

This is how my body reacts. I'm choking down the hurt, holding in the shame, the embarrassment every single second of every day as I try to go on about my life. This is what happens when I have physical and mental muscle fatigue and I can't hold back the sorrow, the misery, the disgrace. I hate myself. I despise that I get to walk around in the world. Finally that pain pushes too hard, and I can't fight it off any longer. The attacks leave me breathless, teary. Embarrassed. Sick.

I made an unforgivable mistake and I refuse to let myself off the hook. I wont make excuses. I wont accept any. I'm unlikely to soften this stance. I am a miserable twit and am mortified at what I've done.

I've had an instant of recklessness and will punish myself for a lifetime because of it. There will be no healing process. I will never forget this, I will always live with it. Its pain and the terrible domino effect it had on my life.

And I haven't been able to say any of this to my wife. I haven't been able to IM her, text her, send smoke signals, or telegraph, much less do what I really honestly, with all of my heart want to do....

I want to walk up to her slowly. Take her hand gently into mine, making sure her sweet, soft pinky is not separate, rather inside my hand where it is safe. I'll put my other hand slowly, gently on her small, delicate shoulder. I'll softly glide it across to the nape of her neck, dragging the backs of my fingers up her neck, to cup the back of her head. I'll move my head towards hers and place the most tender of kisses on the side of her right temple. Then, I'll pull my head back, look deeply into her amazing almond-shaped eyes. I'll gaze past them, into her. I'll look directly at her soul and I'll tell her...

Baby, I'm sorry.

Pa-sta

I don't wanna

I feel like a toddler. Up past their nap time, who hasn't eaten well, suffering from diaper rash. 

I don't wanna.

I don't want to be at work. I don't want to go home. I don't want to sit on the couch, I don't want to lay down. I don't have anywhere to drive. There isn't any store with anything I could use. No restaurant has food I'd enjoy. No friends have invited me over, no bars are running any specials. Driving would irritate me right now, walking would piss me off. I can't nap, music sounds all weird, movies are too long, tv all sucks.

I don't wanna.

I can't stand to look at rental listings. I get nauseous thinking about opening the door to my storage unit. I have no idea where any of my coats are, other than, "In the 10x25 somewhere in a garbage bag." I don't feel like crawling through it looking. I don't want to restack the items in it so I can fit the remnants from my other tiny unit into it, reducing the bill I'll owe next week. I don't want to open the power bill I'm gonna have to pay eventually. I don't want to email that guy back. I don't want to answer this call.

I don't wanna.

Getting out of bed is a harassment. Taking a shower is weird. Getting dressed actually hurts. My hair sucks, I don't care. I don't want lunch. Dinner can fuck off. I don't want to sit at the table, I don't want a tv tray, I'm not going out, I hate dessert. Going to the bathroom is a bother, can't I wear a diaper? 

I don't wanna.

I'm not going to the store. I don't need groceries. So what I'm out of toothpaste? I don't feel like riding with you, I don't want to be here alone.

I can't close my eyes. I can't fall asleep. I can't imagine, I can't pretend.

I don't wanna. 

Don't Have To Be. Just Come Back

It's Not Over
Daughtry


I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

I miss you, like everyday

I Miss You
Beyonce

I thought that things like this get better with time
But I still need you, why is that?
You're the only image in my mind
So I still see you...around

I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
Said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same

Words don't ever seem to come up right
But I still mean them, why is that?
It hurts my pride to tell you how I feel
But I still need to, why is that?

I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
I said I miss you, missing you insane

But if I got with you, could it feel the same

It don't matter who you are
It's so simple, I feel it
But it's everything no matter who you love
It is so super, I feel it
But it's everything

I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
I said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same

It don't matter who you are
It's so simple, I feel it
But it's everything no matter who you love
It is so super, I feel it
But it's everything

There Must Be an Open Door

Come Back
Pearl Jam

If I keep holding out,... will the light shine through?
Under this broken roof,... it's only rain that I feel
I've been wishing out the days,... come back

I have been planning out,... all that I'd say to you
Since you slipped away,... know that I still remain true
I've been wishing out the days,...

Please say, that if you hadn't of gone now
I wouldn't have lost you another way
From wherever you are,... come back

And these days, they linger on
And in the night, as I'm waiting on
The real possibility I may meet you in my dream
I go to sleep

If I don't fall apart,.... will the memories stay clear?
So you had to go,..... and I had to remain here

But the strangest thing to date
So far away
And yet you feel so close
And I'm not gonna question it any other way

There must be an open door
For you to
Come back

And the days, they linger on
And every night, what I'm waiting for
Is the real possibility I may meet you in my dream

And sometimes you're there
And you're talking back to me
Come the morning I could swear you're next to me

And it's okay.

It's okay.
It's okay.

I'll be here
Come back
Come back

I'll be here
Come back
Come back

I'll be here
Come back
Come back

If I Had the Chance to Renew

Not Over You
Gavin DeGraw

Dreams, that's where I have to go
to see your beautiful face anymore
I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio
Hope, hope there's a conversation
where we both admit we had it good but
until then it's alienation, I know, that much is understood
And I realize

If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what they say, I'm not over you
Not over you

Damn, damn girl you do it well
And I thought you were innocent
You took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent
I I'm a boomerang doesn't matter how you throw me
Turn around and I'm back in the game
Even better than the old me
But I'm not even close without you

If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you

And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced
So until then

If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you

It Haunts Me

I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You
Colin Hay


I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that's far away
And when I'm done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
That if I lived 'til I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
I'm no longer moved to drink strong whisky
'Cause I shook the hand of time and I knew
That if I lived 'til I could no longer climb my stairs
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
Your face it dances and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
Even after all these years
But I don't want you thinking I don't get asked to dinner
'Cause I'm here to say that I sometimes do
Even though I may soon feel the touch of love
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
If I lived 'til I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

An Explanation

I created this blog originally for the purpose of documenting the songs that were feeling especially appropriate to my current mood. I imagined the songs slowly changing as time passed, as my trauma recovery progressed.
As it turns out, having your heart ripped out and your wife/best friend evaporating off the face of the earth takes significantly longer to process than one might have imagined at the beginning. I've only recently come out of the sheer shock and bewilderment or it all.

Due to circumstances beyond control, I am not allowed to contact my wife, nor her I. This is the single most agonizing mitigating factor to the whole thing. While it is difficult enough to process the loss of one's life partner, it's multiplied a thousand fold to do so with zero conversation, no interaction, no communication of any type.

It is inconceivable. There was no goodbye. No trying to work it out. No begging for another chance. No dividing of stuff. There wasn't a conversation of where we stood and an understanding of why it hadn't worked out. No chance to apologize. There was no attempt or ability to find closure. So I'm torn open and bleeding.

This was the woman I had every intention of spending the rest of my life with. I had sold out to our relationship. All of my heart and brain was devoted to this woman, her kids, my kids, and our future plans. There was no part of me "held back. " In some relationships you hold out a certain portion of yourself as protection against failure, the one that notices girls walk by at the mall, the one that keeps in touch with an ex you never really got past, the one that never mentions your marital status to the girl from the office upstairs you flirt with on the elevator. I didn't have that part of me in this relationship, I was totally, completely, fully hers. Completely and absolutely devoted. I was using my long vision, planning nursing homes, retirement, next 3 years of vacation. She was exactly where I belonged. I was her perfect match. We were each other's lobster.

The real battle I have is between my heart and my head. My brain can think about the way she left me, the negatives of our relationship, and it can calculate that I may in fact have a chance of coming out on the other side of all of this in a slightly better place.

But you can't convince my heart. My heart misses her. The years, the weeks, the days, the seconds we spent together, planning our life together. The tiniest spot on her waist that accentuated her rockin' curves. Our Redbox dates, catching up on the movies we missed in theaters. Our grocery store trips, her hurrying me along while I compared prices, while she immediately grabbed the quantity she had correctly remembered was the best bargain. My heart hurts thinking of all we shared, all our wonderful time together.

My heart and my head are in conflict and it has taken this event to make me realize... my heart controls me anywhere from 75 all the way to 100% My brain wouldn't feel so hollow and cold. My brain wouldn't physically ache while laying in bed at night. My brain wouldn't cry.



So, I guess now I am adding my own words to the blog. Feel free to comment, or to lurk.




And if you are reading this, love... I'm sorry. You are my home.





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Let's Take It Back

Before The Worst
The Script


It’s been a while since the two of us talked 
About a week since the day that you walked 
Knowing things would never be the same 
With your empty heart and mine full of pain 


So explain to me, how it came to this 
Let’s take it back to the night we kissed 
It was Dublin city on a Friday night 
With vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night


We were sitting with our backs against the world 
Saying things that we thought but never heard 
Who would have thought it would end up like this? 


But everything we talked about is gone 
And the only chance we have of moving on 
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong 


Before the worst 
Before we met 
Before our hearts decided it’s time to love again 
Before today 
Before too long 
Let’s try and take it back before it all went wrong 


There was a time that we’d stay up all night 
Best friends, yeah, talking til the daylight 
Took the joys alongside the pain 
With not much to lose but so much to gain 


Are you hearing me? Cuz I don’t wanna miss 
That you would drift on memory bliss 
It was Grafton street, on a rainy night 
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life 


We were thinking we would never be apart 
With your name tattooed across my heart 
Who would have thought it would end up like this? 


But everything we talked about is gone 
And the only chance we have of moving on 
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong 


Before the worst 
Before we met 
Before our hearts decided it’s time to love again 
Before today 
Before too long 
Let’s try and take it back before it all went wrong


If these clouds don't clear 
then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above it
heaven's gate is so near, come walk me through
just like we used to, just like we used to, yeaah


let's take it back before it all went wrong 


Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it’s time to love again
Before today
Before too long

This Can't Be Right

Without You
David Guetta


I can't win, I can't reign
I will never win this game
Without you, without you
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you

I won't run, I won't fly
I will never make it by
Without you, without you
I can't rest, I can't fight
All I need is you and I,
Without you, without you

Oh oh oh!
You! You! You!
Without...
You! You! You!
Without...you

Can't erase, so I'll take blame
But I can't accept that we're estranged
Without you, without you
I can't quit now, this can't be right
I can't take one more sleepless night
Without you, without you

I won't soar, I won't climb
If you're not here, I'm paralyzed
Without you, without you
I can't look, I'm so blind
I lost my heart, I lost my mind
Without you, without you

Oh oh oh!
You! You! You!
Without...
You! You! You!
Without...you

I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you
Without...you

Manic Episodes

Fix You
Coldplay


When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face 
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes 
Tears stream down your face

And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Big Hole in my world

The Man Who Can't Be Moved
The Script


Going Back to the corner
where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag
I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard,
got your picture in my hand
saying, "if you see this girl
can you tell her where I am"

Some try to hand me money,
they don't understand
I'm not broke, I'm just
a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense
but what else can I do?
How can I move on 
when I'm still in love with you?

Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says "son you can't stay here"
I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for
If it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if
it rains or snows
If she changes her mind
this is the first place she will go

Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
ohhh..
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world
ohhh..

Maybe i'll get famous
as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to
but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
cuase you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved

Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving
I'm not moving, I'm not moving (x2)

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

I'm bleeding

Bleeding Love
Leona Lewis


Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough, and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen, oh

But somethin' happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found somethin' true
And everyone's looking ‘round
Thinkin' I'm going crazy, oh

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closin'
You cut me open and I -

Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
I keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love
Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear, but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from fallin', yeahyeah, oh

But nothin's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness, I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm goin' crazy, baby, baby

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closin'
You cut me open and I -

Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
I keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love
Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
You cut me open

And it's drainin' all of me
Oh, they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closin'
Oh, you cut me open and I -

Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
I keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love
Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love (love)
Oh, you cut me open and I -

Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
I keep bleedin', I keep, (oh, keep bleedin' love) keep bleedin' love
Keep bleedin', (I keep) keep, keep bleedin' love
Oh, you cut me open and I -

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

I don't know how

No Air
Jordin Sparks


Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

[Chris Brown]
I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

[Jordin]
But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

[Chris Brown]
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

[Jordin]
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

[Both:]
So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air

After all the things that we've been through

Heartless
The Fray


In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so cold?
As the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me though

I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me

And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could be so Dr. Evil?
You're bringin' out a side of me that I don't know
I decided we wasn't goin' speak so
Why we up 3 a.m. on the phone?

Why does she be so mad at me for?
Homie, I don't know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go

You run and tell your friends that you're leavin' me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin' talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you

So I got somethin' new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies

I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

I've Got Nothing

Nothing
The Script


Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help you to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if i go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though their slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all i heard was nothing

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I'm face to face that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step i take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting
She'll take me back for sure

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if i go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though their slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all i heard was nothing

She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh sometimes love is intoxicating
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realise there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if i go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though their slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all i heard was nothing

She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing

The Instant

Exit Wounds
The Script


My hands are cold, my body's numb
Im still in shock, what have you done?
My head is pounding, my visions blurred
Your mouth is moving, I don't hear a word


And I hurt so bad, that I search my skin
For the entry point, where love went in
And ricoshad and bounced around
And left a hole, when you walked out


I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these Exit Wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from the Exit Wounds
Wooounds! Where their leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds


Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me, on the floor
I'm damaged goods, for all to see
Now who would ever wanna, be with me?


I've got all the baggage, drink the pills
Yeah this is living but without the will
I'm backing out, I'm shutting down
You left a hole, when you walked out yeah


I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these Exit Wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from the Exit Wounds
Wooounds! Where their leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds


Lose your clothes and show your scars that's who you are
[x4]


Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me, on the floor


I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these Exit Wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from the Exit Wounds
Wooounds! Where their leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds